I had such a nice Valentines Day with two friends! I stayed over at one of those friend's places and we had such spicy pizza that my nose ran and my mouth burned, it was lovely. We also watched The Rabbi's Cat which was a very well animated movie based on a graphic novel, it made the ending a bit lacking!

Tomorrow is Tết, Vietnamese New Year, and we'll be having a mildly huge feast with the small family (and my sister's friend). I wonder what my mom's "gifts" this year are gonna be... And I wonder what she cooked (I've only seen glimpses despite her using up the entire kitchen all the time) because we're five people this year and yet it looks like she prepared for a whole village!!

I am very nervous about the welfare aid but it's going to work out one way or another... It always has.

Going to the store with my buddy tomorrow to pick up my new vinyl player, I hope it won't rain (too hard)! And then I gotta go to my youth group meeting. We're gonna craft something for my co-leader as a (temporary) goodbye gift because he's leaving for an internship next week.

Everything is okay. Whew! Now I just need to figure out if we'll get welfare aid...

I've been eyeing this HiFi set for a vinyl player, and I got a deal for 350... Might treat myself, as a birthday treat, you catch my drift?!

It's my birthday! Boogie woogie woogie! We (me and my family) are going to my favorite Japanese restaurant later today and before that I will get my favorite kebab for lunch.

I've been relistening to The Adventure Zone: Balance, for the first time this year, let's gooooo!! I'm already at the Suffering Game (the final arc before the flashback). I cannot WAIT for the Story and Song graphic novel in July.

Thank god everything is getting solved financially, my sick pay has already been transferred but I'm not sure if it went to the right bank account. I'll just have to wait and see...

Happy February... Tomorrow is V's big exam day, I'm trying to keep myself healthy. I AM SO STRESSED THOUGH!!! I can't even scream because my voice is still gone!!! These past weeks I've been trying not to freak out too much but I AM FREAKING OUT TOO MUCH, everybody must be so annoyed by me. :-(

IT GETS WORSE!!! We are in debt!!!! Trying not to freak out about everything right now, but it doesn't get easier AT ALL!!!! Everything is the pits right now!!!!!!! GOD DAMN!!!

LIFE IS ACTUALLY THE WORST FOR ME, I have the flu and I feel so bad! I haven't felt this sick in ages, I thought I was free... Healthy... This sucks. I didn't even get to do much today except carry a normal (YET HEAVY) microwave for like ten blocks. That sure didn't help my already-broken immune system...
。゜゜(´Ｏ`) ゜゜。

I have a busy weekend ahead of me! Also thought about maybe getting discharged soon and there's so many mixed feelings... Will I be fine? Am I going to manage without the lovely structure provided at the clinic? Can I handle everything on my own again? Well, I did it before, so why not. Life is difficult for everyone.
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Today was sooo cold! -4°C! We went to the park in the afternoon to look at the lighting event, it was very cute. I was so darn sleepy today though, I took a nap right on the table where I had lunch like half an hour before. I wish J's coffee would've come to save me... Didn't even get to talk to a doctor because I was too nervous. But all in all, a solid day.
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Today was kind of exhausting although I didn't do much. At the end of the clinic day, I spent the evening with a co-patient eating kebab and smoking cigarettes... He told me some concerning stuff but I'll take those secrets to my grave.
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We just worked out the details for the welfare aid, only need to print out some documents and then we're set to give out the application. What a world we live in...

L is coming over for coffee; I'm giving him my CD player that I don't like. It's great being able to exchange stuff like this with friends.

Also the bleach and dye at the hairdresser's worked out quite alright, they're such strong colors which I'm still trying to get used to. It's fun!
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Hell be damned, I'm on top of my game -- kind of! I slept like a baby and woke up fine, and I can feel myself feeling very talkative and sociable today. What incredible power is this?

I am dreading the bureaucratic part of my week... I need to ask for help. I wish I knew where to get it though.

I forgot to update yesterday... Haircut went fine! They didn't have time to bleach and dye it on the same day, so I'm going back on Friday for that. It looks like this (a Mohawkesque Mullet...):

My sister and her fiancé are coming over tonight for dinner and before that I will meet my buddy L for a birthday coffee date. I have to be back at 5:30 PM!

Edit: I looked up the Instagram of the ex I'm no-contact with. Bad idea!

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Haircut day! I will report back when it's #done.
Thinking... I try not to lament old friendships too much but it happens regardless... But it's a good time to celebrate and appreciate my current friendships!
ヽ(o＾▽＾o)ノ

Today we're taking it easy. I'm going to shower, code some details of other pages here and there, and then in the afternoon I will be sitting as a model for my friend V's clown make up once again.
ヽ(*・ω・)ﾉ

Went out with friends last night and I had a really good time, the two friends haven't known each other yet but got along really well! We played Yahtzee, I played it for the first time in person, and I had the lowest score. Here's a picture of our score card that my other L friend made (we were an L-group! Thus the same initials + second differing letter):

I was so very happy and comfortable! Though I think I had a slight dopamine crash or something towards the end of the night (of my night, at least) and had to go home ASAP. I think my hormones are going crazy lately, I've been MAYBE hypomanic the past weeks because I started taking my testosterone again... aw man. I should get more consistent. I also gave up on pursuing top surgery because it's so much running after doctors and bureacratic bullshit... At this point I'll just have to live with boobs sometimes (binders help but they're annoying because mine keep breaking!! I also haven't gotten a new one in years...) but it's okay... I'm not madly dysphoric, I think.
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Yell heah!! Today was such a nice day, I made a new friend at the clinic and I made an appointment for the haircut. Super happy. I'm worried I'll look dumb when my hair is unstyled but a good stylist should be able to resolve that problem somehow... +++ The new friend in question might be discharged as soon as the upcoming Monday already - I'm glad for them that they feel better to the point of finally being allowed to go home but AH! I *JUST* CONNECTED WITH SOMEBODY AT THAT PLACE! Also if you're reading this because I sent you my website to look at... HELLO, J!!!!! I HOPE I DIDN'T COME ON TOO STRONG!!!!
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I'm gonna do it! I will get a new haircut! It's going to be something with huge sidecuts (on both sides, yes) and mullet-esque, though I am sure everybody is fed up with that style already. I D G A F! I also want stars embedded on the shaven side of my head. I AM going to look cool as hell!

Today's a holiday, so I can somewhat chillax, yay! That just simply means more coding, LOL.
I'll start bringing my laptop to the clinic from tomorrow on. Not even sure if my site will be displayed because of the "newly registered domain" block...
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Oh my... I've been coding day and night and nothing seems to work out the way I want it to... BUT! It is very much fun regardless. Hyperfixating so hard that I forget to go after my other responsibilities but whatever, there's nothing urgent anyway...
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Been in a very good mood today, despite having a few social hiccups here and there... Feeling very inspired as well! I like the general design of this website already but I KNOW I can do more with it, seeing other people's hard work at least. Let's see!

HAPPY NEW YEAR! I am officially unemployed now...
I've been so in the moment when I'm around company that I forget to take pictures OTL I don't think I even took an OOTD pic. At least that means I enjoyed being around with those people than hanging around on my phone! New friends have been made — maybe?
I do have THIS random picture of one tiny part of our food table, the great charcuterie board!! I didn't take part in making it but I am proud.

Edit: Okay, now that I have somewhat recovered from being hungover, I wanted to add more onto... everything.
As I've mentioned, I have become Unemployed Destroyer Of Employment and I really need to look into getting unemployment money from the government but they're cracking down on everything and I do not have the mental capacity to do anything bureaucratic again! It is such a nightmare!

I want to start an apprenticeship as a librarian (kind of) this year, I pray that my documents will be sufficient this time. Last round (two years ago) I got rejected from EVERYWHERE. A total blow to my ego, honestly. But there's unfortunately not enough space for a little clown like me in these TWO or THREE open spots from an applicant pool of about a thousand (maybe? I'm exaggerating anyway; but it is something like that).

I'm dreading this year like I do every new year but that also means new opportunities. Time will pass anyway.
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Today is the last day... EVER!!!!
I still need to go prepare my things for V's NYE party... Kind of nervous because I kind of invited myself over? I'm sure everybody will be super chill though - I know my friend is!

I will post my OOTD later maybe... I gotta BUTCH IT UP. And I will.
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Hearing the first fireworks scares me already. I hate them for myself, but also for my two cats. (Tom and Jerry.) (Wait, I will link a huge photo of them HERE.) (Guess which one's which!)

Last day at the clinic this year. Went out for coffee with my good buddy L and then I bought some stuff for NYE.

I'll get the baguettes for banh mi tomorrow morning, so it's fresh... I think banh mi is Viet street food enough for V's theme?!! I'm making it extra vegan (I realized today how pork-y banh mi is: pork sausage, pork pate, pork ham...) so I hope they appreciate my efforts.

Edit: OH! Also here are some pictures I took on my digicam from the 19th and 27th.

Just testing... (I tested out the technical thinking capabilities of my mind. I failed.)

Hello! I have risen. (AKA re-created a website of mine own.)